Guess what tomorrow is?(:

That's right, tomorrow (as I write this) is the first of February- the day that I have decided to take a month long break from Facebook and Television!:D I don't know why I'm so excited... I really don't. 'Cause it's not as if anybody else cares. But, it'll be good for me. It's a huge waste of my time! And time is so valuable. I could spend it reading or meditating, which are two things that are much better than stalking people on Facebook.(X


READING/MEDITATING > STALKING PEOPLE ON FACEBOOK


Seeee?!:D


I could clean up my room, venture around town (if weather permits) and work on art projects!:D Which reminds me, I have to bother my mom to let me set up an Etsy account, so maybe then I can SELL some of my creations...(: 


Bahh, school. 'Nuff said.:P


Au revoir, les amis.(;

Chicken Strips and British Guys.(:

I cooked up some chicken strips for lunch today- yummy!:D And I've been watching YouTube videos of Charlieissocoollike and his friend, Alex Day.(: But oh, poop, the family JUST returned from work. I like being home alone, except for lovely little Romeo to keep me company.(: I might have mentioned it before, but I really dislike the negative energy my sisters and mum create and produce./: It really upsets me, and makes me long for a place- a home all to my own to maintain a happy feeling about.(: That'd  be nice.

Well, I guess I have to go and do my chores now./:

Au revoir, les amis.(:

Hi. It's been awhile.

I haven't written in my blog for a kind of a long time, huh? Well, here's some of what's new:
The semester- I miss the first semester already.): I miss the friends and easy-breezy, fun classes./: What am I going to do?? Well, at least I got a new binder.(:


I slept over at Star's house last night, and had soo much fun!:D I went home on the bus with her, and a certain place called me to set up an interview- which I went to today, and fingers crossed that I have some luckk to get a job!(: 


I want to make February MY month. Ya know, to start anew. Even though January was the start of the new year, it wasn't a very good start.:P And who says I can't just start something whenever? I say I can!(: 
Start new how? I'm glad you asked.(X Starting February I will go a month without wasting time watching ANY TV or GOING ON FACEBOOK!:O That's what I plan to do, and I hope to succeed.(: Reading books and meditating appeals more to me. And some of the books that I have been reading have really been changing my perspective of things, and I am thankful for them.(: Two specifically are Like We Care, and How NOT to be Popular.(: Yuppers.


Oh, and on another note, I haven't been vegan or vegetarian for a while, and I'm a little upset with myself about it, but what the hell?:P I can choose to do whatever I want!:D


Au revoir, les amis.(:

Face-to-Face

Today I woke up to find out that school was canceled. And I would have been perfectly content with just a delay. I actually wanted just a delay, 'cause I had no idea what I was going to do today. I thought about it for a while, then just decided to go back to bed.:P 

I had quite an eventful weekend. 'Nuff said.(:

Anywhoodlee, today's Facebook status reads: 

Could you survive without Facebook?? For how long?

Savannah Bundy said she's gone a WHOLE MONTH without Facebook to prove people wrong that she wasn't addicted. But, after a month of course that addiction creeped back. 

And this goes for all technology that we rely on- God forbid two people would have to have a conversation face-to-face rather relying on things like instant messaging and texting. 

Maybe that's why I'm so shy: I rely on technology to much as my voice./: If only there were a way I could break free of the addiction! 

Aside from all that madness, I came across a school, an amazing school in Missouri. A entire beautiful high school and campus dedicated to a variety of arts! Fuck Donegal, Interlochen is where I belong! But, that'll have to remain a dream./: *sigh* 

Au revoir, les amis.(:

Insert Second Interesting Title Here.(:

On Friday I was thinking about things again, and decided to write my mum another letter, hoping to get some insight from her. This time it was a little longer though:

"Hi Mum, it's me again.

This time as I'm writing this I'm in Biology class, and we're going over our Final Exam Study Guide. It's only 8:22, at least that's what my watch says. I;m the only one at my table, because everyone who sits near me went to other tables to work with other students. I usually work alone when we're doing partner work in any class, unless it's some big project. Except in one class, even though I had a partner for a Business Leadership project, I was doing all the work. I don't remember the girl's name, but she wouldn't help me at all. I didn't get to finish that project and I'll probably get a bad grade, which wouldn't be fair because I missed a class or two, and was pretty much on my own. Oh well.

I was thinking it'd be nice to visit the river, in Bainbridge, and the trails there. Well, maybe when winter is over. That'd be nice. I'm anxious for warm days, and warm nights. I loved walking around outside barefoot.(:

I miss Ali. It was fun the last time I slept over at her house, and Scot's really cool, although it seems like he'd get rather lonely, especially since Brownie died.): That's really sad.

I really wish I had a camera, like the ones we use in Photography class. They're wonderful. I love taking and editing pictures and video, a lot. Which reminds me, I still need to figure out how I'm going to complete my graduation project...

I don't want this semester to end, I'm scared because I still owe late work and missed tests, I'm not sure how I'm going to get it all done.

I really hope I didn't go over on my phone bill. I'm not sure how that could have happened. I was thinking maybe it was for keeping old voice-mail messages, so I deleted them all last night.(: What would I do without my phone? How would I even get a job then?? How would I get together with friends and talk to people when I need consoling? I surely can't use facebook for all that- it's not most efficient. What if I decide to go on a walk by myself, and something were to happen? What if I'm just home alone and something horrible happens?? I bet if I were to lose my cell phone to you, you would punish me if I randomly went on a  walk. If you took me of the computer, I'd try to go to the library, or maybe a nearby friend's house for computer usage. Then you'd take my iPod, and you might now music is VERY important to me. You know what I'd do then?(: I'd walk around town, strumming my guitar, instead of walking 'round town with earbuds blasting music into my skull.(:

WHICH REMINDS ME- I REALLY NEED A KAPO! ...I can't remember if that's spelled with a 'k' or a 'c'... I also really need glasses. Can you believe the TV is blurry to me when I'm sitting on the couch?! How could my eyesight have gotten so bad, so fast?/:

I also need a bike. And could you look into that Etsy thing? It's really exciting to me, to be able to sell things made by me.(: I'd feel very much appreciated.

Hmm. I really like to write, but I probably look weird, scribbling madly away.(: But I don't  mind, I'd love to have lost my mind, completely mad, I tell y.(: Looks like the class is almost over, so tootless.

-Virginia McL

(continued)

Hi, I'm bored again.

It's now 10:12, according to my watch. I was thinking, I wish I could have a laptop, or a mini laptop. That way I could curl up in a corner with it, or be in a coffee shop or something, and be all nerdy.(: By that I mean I could do research for pleasure, I'd really like that. I like to learn, especially on subjects that interest me. Oh, I could do a lot of typing, too. I'd carry it around with me, and whenever an idea popped into my head, such as for a song, or a story, I'd be able to type it down while it was fresh in my head!(: I'd like that lots.:D I'd be a true nerd.(: I'd start saving money, if I had something to save./: Gosh. This is really upsetting, seeing people who are more privileged to things than me, and sometimes not using what they have with best intentions. *Sigh* When and how will life look up??

Au Revoir,   (<<French, I want to learn more French)
-Viii McL"

My mom told me she read that once, but needs to read things twice to comprehend.:P I'll bug her until she reads it again so I can get some thoughts from her, assuming she would have some.


Au Revoir, les amis.(:

Insert Interesting Title Here.(:

On thursday, in history class, I got bored, and wrote my mom a letter.(: It read this:

"Dear Mum of Mine,

I am in History class as I write this. Although History is my least favorite class, I really like the teacher, who is a very animated long-term substitute. The kid beside me really smells, but I guess he doesn't know it because his nose is broken, and the kid who sites on the other side of me is absent. But none of that really matters, because this semester is very soon to it's end.

I finished that one book, Is Kissing a Girl who Smokes like Liking an Ashtray? and it was rather short, but quite a  good read, because I could really relate to it.

You're probably wondering why I am writing to you. I don't know, I like writing to people, maybe it's because I'm not as good talking face-to-face to a person because I'm a slow thinker. After reading that book  I began thinking about my father. Wondering if he ever thinks of us- of me- and what his life is like today. If he were to die before I got to see him or contact him once more.. I would be quite upset. Sure he wasn't the greatest as we knew him, a conning, hurtful fellow, but he was, as I remember, wise and intelligent. That's how I believe he and I can relate unlike you and I, sadly. It used to be just Victoria, but now days wI am immediately upset and strongly feel tension when you too, enter the room.

I digress from that subject, I cannot wait to get my permit, and a job. To be able to travel and get away to my preferences. Someday, one day, I'll travel to a European country, maybe England.

I was thinking about the summer vacation we take with the family, to that beach house in Delaware. I'm anxious to go. Actually getting away and staying somewhere else for a while would be really nice. I wouldn't mind someplace kind of rainy, as long as it's warm...
The correlation of thoughts of freedom with moving out has me impatient for it. I'm simply an 'indie'pendant person- who enjoys humorous and intellectual company.

I am nearing the end of this paper, so I should go.

-Virginia McL"

That's what it read, and after reading it, my mom just told me she didn't know what to say. Oh well.


Au revoir, les amis.(:

The Good Times Are Killing Me

That is the name of a Modest Mouse song that I recently downloaded onto my iPod. In fact I downloaded many great Modest Mouse songs thanks to a great website.(: That was something that helped brightened my day. 
Another thing that I'm quite happy about is that I checked out a few books from the library (on monday) to read and occupy my time.:D I'm already halfway through "Is kissing a girl who smokes like licking an ashtray?" I wish I was like the one character, Heidi, who is such a bold, amazing girl. But no, I'm more like the main character, a  dude named Biff who is super shy, and meets this Heidi girl and she pretty much changes his life.:P I need to find my own Heidi.(X 


Three things that keep me happy: Good music, good books, and good friends.(:

Au revoir, les amis.(:

And I'm content to walk a little slower, because there's nowhere that I really need to be.

On thursday Dylan drove me home after school... Well, actually we drove to HIS home, where we checked in to see his mom, then we went to the local coffee shop. For some coffee, of course.(: We went to get Nicky and Zach, who wanted to get coffee, so we went back to the same place, except that time we sat right by the window. Since mostly all they talked about is masturbation, (I concur with the fact that Zach is a chronic masturbator) I just let my mind wander onto other matters. After being at the coffee shop until we were told that it was closing time, we eventually went on back to Dylan's house. I was privileged (*cough*) to be able to watch them boys play some (*cough*, lame) 'amazing' card game. Magic. Something. Spent pretty much the whole day (after school) with them lovely boys.:S
Although I did like it better when it was just me and Dylan, 'cause at least then I could be apart of a conversation.:P 


This saturday morning I woke up 'round eight-ish, so that I could get ready to venture to Saturday's Market with Dylan, Zach, and Alexxx. They are some uber geeks, in my opinion, getting all excited, and spending hours looking at them cards.:3 
There were sooo many weird looking, creepy, and smelly people there.D: This one old guy with a perfect white mustache and dark round glasses passed by so many times, and looked at me real queer-like. And another creepy guy pretty much shoved a pamphlet about religion into my hand. Which I threw away when I saw a trashcan. The guys were trying to get me to eat something because this morning I passed out due to, well, the lack of food.:P Dylan made a joke about meat, and it accidentally sounded sexual, so it was pretty funny.(X I listened to two StuffYouShouldKnow podcasts, and one LearnToMeditate podcast, and it was pretty good shit.(:
We went back to Dylan's again eventually, and I watched ILoveYou,Man and half-watched the boys play cards again. Nooottt reall excitin', I might add. I pretty much spent the day with them until four, and in my own world the whole time.


When I did get home, I wasn't real happy about returning. I had no clue what to do! I DID want to library to get some books to read and occupy my time, but it was already closed!D: And closed tomorrow, too.): So my mom said she'd buy me a magazine at Weis, where I ran into Star and her mom.:P I picked a rather nerdy magazine, but nothing else interested me.:P Victoria was still on the computer when I returned home again. We sang some karaoke. Then I got on the computer and we sang MORE.(: Then I got tired from singing, so I decided to write this very blog about my day.:D  


I hear the words you say, I hear the way you say them, but the words you don't say are even louder. 


Au revoir, les amis.(:

First Major Fail of the Year?:P

This morning, this friday morning, I woke up wondering if we did or did not have a two hour delay off of school. The news on the television said nothing about it, nor did the internet. FOX lied to me, of course. My sister said we did in fact have a delay, but I did not believe her because I did not see it for myself. I called up my mum, who was a work, and asked if she could call the school for me. She called back and confirmed that we did, but by then I was already done getting dressed for school. I was so upset I nearly cried, which is realllyyy odd, because one might think a person would be most joyful for a delay. But no, I was mistaken and already ready for school, which meant I couldn't really go back to sleep, which will mean I will be most tired throughout school and probably when I get home. *Sigh* I guess since I do have an extra two hours awake, I might go to the local coffee shop this morning, not completely sure yet. I haven't even seen what it looks like outside yet. Wish me luck on this day, this hopefully not dreadful day.

Au revoir, les amis.(:

Pneumoniaaahhhhh!? D: *cough cough*

Well, the other night I had to go to the emergency room because my side was really hurting. Like, REALY hurting. Verdict was: I pulled a muscle from my constant coughing, and I have pneumonia./: That's a really sucky way to end and start a year.:P Being this sick sucks, there's so many different kinds of medicines I'm on, and I can't see many people or go out and do the things I wanted to do over this christmas vacation. I might not even be well enough to go back to school on monday. This is a very upsetting situation.

But despite the sick and sadness, just yesterday I got to go to the mall, and the Tanger Outlets with my sisters and their boyfriends, and at first I wasn't having a great time, but I was much happier when I bought some lace tights and new 'nazi' shoes. They aren't really nazi shoes, that's just what Dan called them, and I guess they have some resemblance of what one might imagine a nazi would wear.:P Oh well, they're just shoes.(:

I haven't gotten to do all the things I promised myself I would before going back to school, but I did get to decorate my room a bit. It's kind of amazing. I took down a couple things off of my wall that I didn't like anymore and I put up a bunch of lovely old pictures, letters cut from magazines that say "You were born an original, don't die a copy" stuff like that.(: There are also colorful paper cranes hanging above me when I am in bed and look skyward. I also put up lights around my room, so it looks all dreamy.
Dreamy... I'm always dreaming. I'm simply a dreamer.

Keep dreaming,

Au revoir, les amis.(: