A glimpse, a glance, a gander at the past.

I know I hate it when others change, 
But I've changed too-
I know it's true.
Looking through those old pictures:
I couldn't contain silent tears from running down. 
I know not exactly where this sorrow came from, 
I think I shall like to find it, 
Not to face it, but to hush it.
I feel scared that I'm losing myself, 
or am already lost. 
My past faces.
Was life better then?
I ALWAYS want to be somewhere else,
somebody else. 
When will I ever be perfectly content?
Surely not when I have everything, 
for, what is every concrete desire if it isn't shared??
A waste, I have come to learn, 
but blanket this in my mind.
Maybe if I rid of everything? 
Life is hard with what little I already have.
But I dream of living a transcendental life.
Dreaming constantly, makes my heart heavy.
I know I shouldn't torture myself by the pondering
and dwelling I do on dreams and desires,
But I lack the will to pursue. 
My mind tortures itself.


Smile on, lovers.

HEY YOU!

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Thanks! 


Au revoir, les amis.(;

Ohh myy garshh

It sure has been a while.
Recap: My sisters finally got kicked out of the house, I thought it would make life easier for me, but I think it's gotten more difficult. Why? Because I'm THE ONLY ONE for my mum to bug and boss around. I simply cannot stand it. I can't stand her. But I haven't the slightest clue what to do about it.

I really want to quit working at Sonic, and try to get a job somewhere else. I don't like not being able to be better presented with a chance for working in customer service, because with Sonic, it's just too quick in my opinion. The customer's there, then they're gone. I dunno. I just feel like I'm not getting anywhere.

BUT I also need a car, badly.
I really hate how my mum tries to control even my spending now, so I have an electric guitar, BUT NO AMP!): She says "no more spending until you have one  thousand one dollars in the bank."
*Sighh

I'm wearing a really cute big ugly itchy sweater right now, I am totally loving this chilly weather.(;

Enough complaining for now,
Au revoir les amis.

Death By Chocolate?(;

Georgia and I made brownies at three- four o' clock in the morning, and the smell of them woke her parents up somehow.:O I mean, who wouldn't want to wake up to the smell of brownies? Those people, apparently. It was pretty fun.(: Except, the mix looked kinda.. weird? Yeah, weird.(X And they turned out pretty interesting- really chewey, almost like we put caramel or something in them.. I think it was because we used chocolate powder for making like, hot cocoa, instead of actual cocoa powder.. But they were actually really yummy!(:

Anyyywhooo, enough about our cooking experiences..(;

Yeesterday, after a little episode freakout of mine, I went driving with my mum. We went to Sonic, and picked up Morgie-pie and to my old neighborhood, in Bainbridge. Oh, Romeo was there too, and my mum screamed so loud when he peed on her.xD I could not stop laughing at that.c:

There is one thing about yesterday that is troubling me... But I'm not sure what to say about it. Yeah, it really sucks, but I guess I've got to learn to move on from things with my head held high.

I feel like I learned a lot about Georgia by talking to her yesterday/ today. It makes me glad that she trusts me.(: 

Maybe it's about time I made new, close friends?

P.S. I could go for a doughnut.xD

That's all for now,

Au revoir, les amis. Smile on, shine on.(:

MDSFIOHEWNOPDSOIJMAHU(FDFNJS{SD()U(EFOSFDGD&E!!! (PART 2)

Now, where did I leave off?(:
Anywhoodle, I've been hanging out with a friend of mine's little sister lately, who is pretty cool, but I didn't know she was like 4 years younger than me.:O But age doesn't matter, and she's a state too.(; Awesome sleepovers, I must say. Here's a montage of words to describe the awesomeness: toilet; cones; 1000 ways to die; fire ants; 'Homo & Tits'; eggs; signs; spoons; CHEESE!:D
Yeeee.
I get to go for my license next month.:O I'm anxious and nervous about it. I still need to practice parallel parking yet.:P I wonder what my first car will be..(:
Dreaming's nice.(:
I dream often.
Like the dream of mine of switching rooms with my sister, Victoria. I proposed the idea to my mum, with many facts on why it would be a beneficial move, but she said "I can't give you an answer this week."
What the ffff?
Bahhh, I dream to much.
Hey, I get paid on the seventh, which means I'll have almost a thousand dollars to hold onto. Realizing that makes me realize how quickly money can come and go. I want to spend it on things like, new glasses, equipment to create a little studio (in the room currently occupied by Victoria), a futon... Stuff like that.
Ohmygosh, I can hardly wait for tomorrow- Holly's taking me to Salvation Army.:D And apparently everything is half off on wednesdays, so I'm hopin' to get some good shoppin' done.(; We might also go to the mall, and who knows what else?(: I loooveeeee thrift stores, soooosososoo much, and Salvation Army is the beeeeeaassttt.:D

I better go so I don't waste too much time in front of the computer. 'Till then,

Au revoir, les amis.(:

MDSFIOHEWNOPDSOIJMAHU(FDFNJS{SD()U(EFOSFDGD&E!!!

AGNEIOANFIEMOIEOIJAFJJOIOEOEWJJAFNKDN!!! 

MMMRRRAAAAHHHHH!!! 

Okay, I can't recall what all I had wrote on my previous blog post, and I don't feel like checking, SO...

I went through withdraw from my meds around the beginning of july, but since then got a refill, so I'm doing much better. A lot better. On withdraw, I would always cry randomly, especially when I was home alone. It was terrible. I found out that if I take my meds later than I usually do (10 o'clock am) I act really loopy later in the day, like at work yesterday- now THAT was fun.(X 

What else... what else...

I bought the 'Lenses Delight' product from Amazon.com- aahhhmaziing!(: The tripod wasn't broken when I got it this time, yayy.;P The fisheye lens is my favorite, it's so legit. 

Shit, I've only got 15 minutes left on the computer.): I hate this! 

I  recently realized I'LL BE TURNING SEVENTEEN IN A COUPLE MONTHS!D:

Bahh!

I'll blog later. 'Till then,

Au revoir, les amis.(:

Oh Sheesh Ya'll!

I'm not even going to state the obvious heere.

Just got back from Delaware Friday. Not a big fan of the beach. Got a horrible watch tan... 

Last post I do believe I said I was saving up for a camera, and guess who has a camera? This chick!:D I also bought a tripod, but that piece of crap broke within a couple days./: I need to get a new tripod now.

I think I have a spending problem, but I'm getting that worked out.(: 

Know what else I have? Bitchy sisters, that's what. I'm anxious for them to move out, go bug someone else.:P 

My room's a complete wreck. I haven't slept in my bed since i got back, it's that bad.:P I do have off tomorrow, so hopefully I can get it cleaned! And hopefully I can get my nose pierced as soon as that's done!

Anywhoodle, today was a pretty good dayy. I rode my bike to work at 11:30ish, was on skates for eight hours, and rode my bike home. Theen I let my sister and her bf use my card to redbox some movies, got a shower, and hung out with some cool kids.(: Hilarious kids! I thought we were going to get beat up by some bitches that started yelling shit when Jesse threw a quarter across the road, and I saw Ryan Faustie while walking by Mojo.:D Fun funnn.(:

Au revoir, les amis?(:

Tuesday Off?

I haven't been able to blog much, any ideas why? Oh yes, work.
"You know, you work a lot. 'Cause every time I'm working you're here and every time I come you're still here working." Is what I was told yesterday by a co-worker. THANKS FOR THE UPDATE, NOT LIKE I DIDN'T ALREADY KNOW THAT.
*Siighhh. I do it for the money. 'Nuff said. And it's not as if I set my own hours, noooo. I was told that I'm closing up all the time 'cause I'm good at it. Yay?:P
"Geez Virginia, they need to pay you more." -is what I was told by another person. I WISH!
I'm saving up for a camera. Well, trying to, anyhow.(: I get paid on the seventh... So I should have that camera in maybe a month or two.:D
Good thing school's almost over. I'm getting sick of it. Well, all the classes EXCEPT for ceramics, and lunch.(X Those are my faaavvorrriitee.(:
Also, I need a haircut. BADLY.

Au revoir, les amis.(:

Dream on, smile on, live on.

A short post before work?

I finally learned that I'd rather dream.

And I really want to get a camera, like the nice ones at school. I'll have to ask Mrs. Hibberd where she got 'em. I really need it for my graduation project, but I also want it to take awesome pictures and maybe start vlogging or something on YouTube, that'd be great.(:

Looks like I gatta go,

Au revoir, les amis.(:

• Mrs

Tired as hell

Ain't that the truth. Tired of school, tired of working so much, tired of stupid asshole people, tired of people  that are unreliable too. Tired of it all.

I had to work about eight hours today. That wasn't as bad as my mum falling asleep and forgetting to take me home at 11:30. So my manager had to drive me home when he was all finished. I walked though the door and yelled at my mum, "thanks for picking me up!" I was quite upset.

At least I have off tomorrow. Wait, it's today.. Not sure what I'll be doing though. I should get to bed soonishly.

Au revoir les amis.(:

"You're not very talkative, like usual. You just don't seem happy."

I don't have much time to blog, so this'll have to be short.

I haven't been able to blog for a while because my keyboard was broke, which is a major bummer./:

The title comes from a text that someone sent to me recently.

I'm just really tired I guess, every inch of me. I want a break from work and school and any other crap. That'd be nice.

I had a bad night the night before last, so my mum let me sleep in wednesday morning, and I went to Sonic for lunch, it was a pretty good day.(:

Oh, and I got some of my stuff in the mail wednesday too!:D I got to wear my pretty white converse and "Talk nerdy to me" bracelet to school that day.:D I got two emails saying that i have sommoree stuff on it's way. Can't wait!:D

Well, I gatta go.

Au revoir, les amis.(:

Let's say it's a good week and leave it at that.

Looks like I've finally got time for blogging, so that's what I'll do, so be prepared for everything I remember most about this week:


MONDAY- On monday a good ole friend of mine texted me, asking to hang out 'cause he got off of work early and wanted to chill for a little, but I didn't get off until around 8:30, so the crazy kid waited for over half an hour for me to get off work. We walked around a bit, and he hid behind a car when I wasn't paying attention and intended to scare me. I didn't like that very much and when a dog was let out from a house not to far away, I freaked out and found Nate behind one of the parked cars and told him to be quiet, 'cause honestly, hiding that late at night would have seemed kind of suspicious to me. He hit his head on the car mirror- I laughed.(X When the dog and people finally went away, we continued walking and I stole his hat. When we were close to where he works and nearish my house, we hugged each other good bye. But it was a very long goodbye.(: I could have hugged him aalll night... But of course I didn't, we both had to be home by a certain time.


TUESDAY- Tuesday, I returned my friend's hat- or more so he just took it from me. Which is okay, 'cause it's so big that I look like a freaking elf in it.(X I went to the bank and opened up a checking account- heck yeahh.:D I get a magical card that I can purchase things with in about a week.:3 I also worked from five to nine this day.. I think this was the day my mum was really late picking me up. Yep. 


WEDNESDAY- Oh, lovely wednesday. I woke up on time for the first time! Then I missed my bus. ACTUALLY- I was almost at my bus stop when the new bus lady passed me. I was quite upset when this happened. Ya know what I did? I walked to school, which takes me about forty minutes. I was almost at school when my bus came by again, but this time with all the middle schoolers. She wanted me to get on, but I walked most of the way, so I was going to walk the rest. Frankly, I was pissed at her for passing me in the first place. I made it just in time get to first period.(: But I was freezing cold and my legs ached. I didn't even stand up to be polite to the people reciting the pledge. But exercise in the morning does wake a person up for the rest of the day, and that surely worked for me this day, so I was in a pretty good mood.(: 
In gym we took a little test on bowling and such, then did some archery. I must say, my skills aren't as bad as I thought they were. Aaannnnd this kid who likes me called me a jerk and asked for a hug. NO. He's not very nice to me, ssooooo.. Yeah.
Anywho, after school I simply had to walk home to stop by the library because I had a couple of overdue books. On the way I was picked up by none other than the amazing Zach and Nate.(: Quite much fun with those two, driving around, getting lost, spilling green tea everywhere.. Well, actually that last part was actually quite upsetting. Tea all in the back of Zach's car, and soaked through my backpack./: I need a new backpack. 


THURSDAY- Woke up this morning feeling reeealllyy sick. I shouldn't have gone to school today I suppose, but I don't very much like missing school. I don't like having to make up missed work. And I like seeing my friends.(: The school day went by very slowly today, not much exciting happened. Called off work 'cause I feel really, really sick today, which is probably from walking to school yesterday, so this is how I pay for it. 


I don't have school tomorrow, but I still gatta go to work at five. I wonder how my weekend's gonna go?(:


Au revoir, les amis.(:

Work, work, work. (Pub, Club, Sleep)

The title is the name of a song, and only have true in my case. I've just been working a lot, and getting lotsa tips, and have yet to open a checking account so I can buy some stuffs online, as I've been planning.(:


Uhh... I'm not sure what else of important matters I wanted to share, so I guess that's itt./:


Au revoir, les amis.(:

Oh sh*t!!

I have a story to tell you, of something actually interesting that recently happened. See, on thursday I was working, and it was like, the second time I was using my bank, which involves me dealing with money and what not. When it was time for me to cash out, I was short nearly fourty dollars, and my good pal Oksanna was over about the same ammount, so I was told by (I think he's a manager in training or something) Orlando. Well, everything seemed to be in order when I left. BUT. After I got home, right before I went to bed, I was taking my tip money out of my apron, when what do I find? Thirty-seven dollars, and coupon. I felt so scared and embarrased. I didn't know what was going to happen. "Would they fire me? No, it was an accident. Will I get reprimanded and yelled at?" was what was going through my head. I could NOT get to sleep that night, and I had off friday, and I would have gone into work and returned the money... but friday was my day off, I had plans and things to do!(: So, TODAY, I walk into work. I take off my coat in the back, and I walk up to Carrie. I told her the truth of what happened. And.... she wasn't mad in the slightest! In fact, the opposite! She and the other new manager (I forget her name) were actually really happy that I was honest about it!(: They thought that since it was reallyy busy on thursday, incorrect change was accidentally given to the customers. But no, all is well now.(: I was so relieved and felt so happy about the outcome. I would not, could not keep that money even if they told me to. 


Also, today I got a really bad, itchy, stinging, red rash on my arms at work. It hurt soooo bad.): I was told it was because of the sanitiser used for washing dishes, so I can't use that stuff.:P It was really bad and I was kinda scared because of it. I walked up to Carrie, and all I could do was show her my arm and say "Uhmm, Carrie? My arm.... really hurts." I think it kinda scared her too becuase well, she looked surprised or shocked or something. But, I think it's all good now.(:


So yeah Friday. Ohmygosh, speaking of friday, I heard this song that I found on the Smosh website, called Friday by Rebecca Black... Is it a joke? Or do people actually like that?? Is she related to Sarah Palen?? She sounds like it.:P I could write a much better song than that!! Lots of people could! Many people could make a better music video than that crappy thing! I HATE the way she says friday! It's like, all nasely. "Frieeeeday." :P and listen to this:  "Partyin', partyin'. *Yeah!* Partyin', partyin'. *Yeah!* Fun, fun, fun, fun, lookin' forward to the weekend. Yesterday was thursday, thursday. Today is friday, friday. We we we so excited. We so excited, we gonna have a ball today. Tomorrow is saterday, and sunday comes afterwards. I don't want this weekend to end!" 
Well I do! So you can shut up and stop stating the obvious! And so I don't have to hear that annoying voice and stupid grammer! "We so excited" ????? What the F**K. Really. 


I really got sidetraked, didn't I?:P Back to MY friday.(: I hung out with Ryan Faustie after school, I had fun.(: We went to the mall, and within like, 10 minutes of being there I already got what I wanted. Which was this men's body wash that smells like pine. I love it so much.(: Ry and I roamed around the mall a bit, went in F.Y.E. and H&M, where I got a grey, yellow, and peach colored hoodie.(: We also got some chinese food, and Ry went on about how Asians were so great 'cause they're so hardworking, smart, and make good food.:P We also went to the Salvation Army, saw some interesting things there, saw some cool things there, saw some weird things there, and I got some really cute shoes for seven bucks.:D I was quite happy.(: Ry and I went back to my place to play a little music for each other, then he had to leave to "plan a secretive event" or something.:P 


Well, I'm cold, still wearing my work uniform, and it's one o'clock.


Au revoir, les amis.(:

Tired & Sick

I'm really tired. And kinda sick still. It 's a major bummer. I've been to tired to even blog lately, and that's pretty tired! I could hardly stay awake in 4th period. Actually, I fell asleep like, 3 times that class, I think. It wasn't just your regular "I'm tired", it was: "If I durn't sleep Ill'm ganna pass..." Out- pass out. I was THAT freaking tired! Ugh.

I forget what else I wanted to share.... I should just go to bed now.:P

Au revoir les amis.(:

New happenings?

Crazy shit. To bad I can't really talk about it for a couple reasons. The main reason is because I don't want to risk myself getting into some kind of trouble, so I'll stay on the safe side and just say crazy shit has been going on. Yup.


My dearest friend who I've known pretty much all my life, invited me to her baby shower. Yeah, I know she lives in Maryland, but like I said, I've known her alllll myyyy lifffeeee, so she's like an awesome sister to me. But, we don't fight, which is why she isn't like a real sister to me, and she's nice and really awesome,  compared to the sisters I actually have.:P (Still love you shitloads, VRon!) But see, my  mum won't let me go./: Which really upsets me, 'cause I really miss the little lady.): She's goin' git her licensee on.. Tuesday, I believe. She IS.(: Then she'll drive her butt up to P of freaking A and visit me. Maybe rescue me, if capable. Can't wait.(:


Work has been kinda busy. No, that's a lie. During the week it isn't really busy at work, but it keeps me busy. I love going in there and getting all cheered up after I've been in a bad mood because of shit at home.(: The other day somehow my manager Jim knew I was upset. How? I have no freaking clue. But he did his best to try to cheer me up, being all goofy. That silly old man.:D It worked.(:


I had off today, and I made plans to hang out with a friend; go to the library; go to some organic shop down the road from where I live; do homework; wash clothes.... and I think that was all... But my friend had to cancel; I did get to go to the library, but I finished one of the books I checked out right after I renewed it.:P ; I didn't get to go to the organic shop; I haven't started on my buttload of homework yet; and I still need to wash my clothes. *sigh* I DID take a nap for a couple hours. Yay?:P No, waste of my day./: And I'm still tired. It took me a lot of energy to get up off of the couch.:P


I'm facebook instant messaging two people. One of which I have never actually met and haven't talked to in a whiiiileee, and the other who: I've made the assumption that, well, I said to him:

I saw your status, and I got excited that you were online, and I wasn't sure why, then I realized you're like one of the onlyy people that has never upset me. My close friends have let me down, and you never had any reason to./: True story.(:


Oh, random question from my OTHER sister (the one whom I dislike, yes?)

Tor- "Why won't you accept my friend request?"
Me- "I'm busy,"
Tor- "No, why won't you accept it,"
Me- (short pause) "because I don't like you."
Tor- (talks quietly, almost to only herself) "Yeah whatever. You like me."


I wanted to get all up in her face and go, "HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, I DON'T like you." I don't see why she doesn't understand that.:P


I just chuckled to myself.(:


I better get busy with homework and stuff soon, before this day is ooooverrrr!


Au revoir, les amis.:D

Working, eleven thirty to two thirty

I walked to work, I worked, I walked home. 

My feet really HURT!

Today wasn't so eventful, except the crazy lunch rush at work, oohhhh mahhh gawshhh! 

Crazy crazy, indeed.

I recovered some tunes onto my iPod, The Rakes. 

Hell yeah, I missed listening to that shit.(: 

I'm in that mood, ya know, the one where you miss your friends, especially the ones you haven't seen in a while and have had awesome adventures with? Yeah, I'm due for an adventure with some friends soon, I can almost feel it. I need it. 

I want to go on a trip. 

A spontaneous trip. To a friendly place I don't know. 

Leave all my worries to rot themselves and start fresh.

I'll tackle the new worries with a can-do attitude before things even have a chance to fall apart. 

I want a chance to be completely care free. 

No worries. I want my self consciousness to evaporate in the sun.

But I don't want to be alone.

I want to laugh at silly simple things.

Yes, I want to go on a trip.

Au revoir, les amis.(:

Working, five to nine.

I completely forgot today was a half day of school until my sister told me this very morning, and that's one sweet deal, if I may say so myself.(: So a shortened school day, then a nap, then frustration about getting my work clothes and being at work on time. My mum was going to take me, but she had to go to her job, and left without me.:P I thought I was going to have to walk to work and be late, but my sisters sweet boyfriend was kind enough to drive me, so I made it on time.(: I'm liking work, it keeps my mind off crap that bothers me, so working makes me happy.(: 


...At least it does now, I bet I'm going to hate having to go to work sometime in the future, we'll see if and when that happens. 


Well I've gatta go,


Au revoir, les amis!:D

This is an immensely long title that serves no purpose for this particular blog post; I was trying to think of a creative title, but I didn't know what else to write... 'Sides, I like to see these words look so awesome as they rest on top of my blog post.:D

I couldn't believe the irony of it- I had lost my phone while in the process of cleaning my messy room! And my phone likes to turn off all the time to really bother me. I don't mind it as much when I'm not using my phone. It bothers me a little more when it turns off while I'm texting. But nothing is more inconvenient than my phone turning itself off when it's misplaced!! I was sure that I left it on my bed, so I checked through the sheets thrice times. I thought it might have been with my shirts, but when I checked my shirt drawer, it wasn't in there either./: 


My emotions went in this order:


Sadness-  "My phone, it's... gone!"
Anger-  "Shit, I lost my phone..."
Worry-  "What am I going to do without my phone?!"
Disbelief-  "I can't believe I lost my phone!"


I thought about calling a psychic... but ya know, I lost my phone.:P 


So when I returned home after work, I tried using my mom's phone to call mine, thinking that my phone would have done a good deed for me and magically turned itself on. I tried without luck.): 


I checked my first drawer thoroughly. Not there. I checked my second drawer thoroughly. Not there either. I checked my third drawer thoroughly. "Freaking freak!" I found it! I found it! I found my phone! :D And as I assumed, there were several messages awaiting for me.(: 


True story.


Au revoir, les amis!(: 
Have a wonderful day!:D

Did you REALLY just-?

This morning I've been kinda lazy, not doing much besides cleaning up a tad, laundry, shower, stuff like that. Last night was pretty fun and I pigged out eating an ice cream sunday.


Anywhoo, that's not all important. No, I just wanted to share something that in my mind is really, REALLY dumb.(:


I was doing my hair, and at one o'clock I got a text from a friend of mine, asking what I was up to. I didn't respond right away, didn't very much feel like talking to that friend in case she asked if I wanted to hang out with her, which I didn't. 
Half an hour later I texted her that I was just doing my hair and she replies: 


"Haha kk im going to my bday party soon wit my grandma and (other friend of mine's name here) sorry i didnt invite u i though u had to work."


I texted back: 
"Yeah, at 5."


(no reply still as I write this.)


Then I thought for a minute.. Wait... Did you REALLY just brag text me? 
You freaking.. Prat. 


So in my mind, what she said was, 
(in a mimicking voice)"Oh hey, what'cha doin'? Oh yeah I'm going to my birthday party that I didn't invite you to 'cause.. I totally planned this before I even knew whether you'd be working or not, ('cause I didn't tell her, and I'm still training) and I'm an ass like that. Yeah"


So yeah, her birthday's in a couple days, and I'm still broke and... don't even- wouldn't even want to bother with getting her a present, so yeah.(:


There are so many things I thought to text back instead, but I didn't. If she ever reads this and understands who it's about, I hope she can put herself in my place and understand how dumb she is.(: 


P.S.  I may sound like a bitch cat, but if you knew her, you'd understand.


Au revoir, les amis.(:

A regular chocolate milkshake sized mess!D:

Day... what, three of working, right?(: I'm still shy and awkward working, but I'm trying to try my best!(X And I made a huge mess spilling chocolate milkshake today... I hate not knowing how much of what goes where, and what some of the letters stand for./: I guess it makes me feel inferior to my co-workers.:P I didn't even get to finish my training for Pete's sake, because the website I was supposed to take tests on is still screwed up!): I really hope I can finally finish that tomorrow, even if I have to read the books that are currently at the one manager with gorgeous eyes, Carrie's house... Poop, I hope she's working tomorrow so she can bring them in! 


Anywhoodle, what else is new? I miss some of the people that I usually miss./: But that isn't really new.): 


Lots of Love! <333


Au revoir, les amis!:D

Not so bad, Eh?(:

Today I had to work after school, and it was not so bad.(: I thought I was going to do training on the computer... but since it wasn't working, I mostly just stood around and tried making a few drinks and such. Yes.:D


So today a few things that I realized that I like are:

• Crazy, outgoing people
• Being adult-ish
• Coming home to a quiet house
• Talking to people about things that matter.

Yesyesyes.(:


Do I have anything else (semi)important to say?...


Nonono.


Au revoir, les amis.(:

This morning felt like christmas.(:

I woke up this morning to doughnuts and a whole freaking jug of Arizona green tea! I was exceedingly joyfulllll.(((: ...Seems like there's really nothing more I can say that can top that!(: 


Au revoir, les amis!:D

Lovely weather we're having, eh?(:

Today I took a walk with the dog. Barefoot. Yyyessss.(:


I trimmed my hair today... Not really sure whether I like it or not.:P


I finished sculpting the thin version of buddha out of clay. Mhmmm.(: 


Downloaded a bunch of music onto my iPod. Chyeahh.(:


Cleaned up my room a bit... Ehh.:P


I wrote a decent song today. Hell yeah!:D 


Have an awesome day.:D


Au revoir, les amis.(:

Everything Is Beautiful.(:

Today I finally went to get glasses. 
Yes.(: 
Left school around eleven o'clock. 
Yes.(: 
When I put the glasses on I could see so clearly, I laughed in awe of how crisp my sight was through the lenses. 
It's pretty amazing. 
True? True.(: 
On the car ride home I was just looking at everything outside, looking and smiling. My mum thought I was smiling for a mischievous reason and when she asked, "what?" I replied, "everything is so beautiful." I wasn't trying to be corny or anything, it's just that when I looked at the trees, I thought they were beautiful. When I looked at the clouds in the sky, I thought they were beautiful too. When I looked at little red barns, they looked beautiful as well. It all made me smile.(: And it made me happy to be able to find pleasure in looking at things that simple and so often taken for granted. I began thinking "everything is beautiful" right then. Even things that are odd or messed up, like say a scar- those can be beautiful in the way that they are different and not completely natural.(: I think have similar mentality as a hippy.(X


Anywhooodle, it's not all happy-joy here. There's a phrase that I've heard too many times today, a phrase that pisses me off to hear it once, and hearing it as many times as I did today, I almost went into hyperventilation, no joke.:P And that phrase is....
"Because I said so."!!! That was the reason I was given for not being aloud to get the nerd glasses I wanted, not being aloud to get the sweater vest or shirt I wanted, or the awesomely smelling men's body wash I wanted.): Not to seem like a greedy child, but I should have been aloud to choose the glasses that I thought best fit me and my style, she had a gift certificate thinger for the store I wanted the clothes at and she didn't want to use it, and she knows I really want that specific scent of bodywash./:


P.S. I hate yelling. And there's been a lot of that at home. It's the sort of thing that makes me want to run away for a while./: When the weather's warmer, I'll be out more.(: A lot more. 


Au revoir, les amis.(:

Let's get writing.(:

Nothing much going on in particular, but I just felt the need to write...


I was looking at other people's blogs earlier and wondering how many people read my own blog how often? Ahh, well. 


Yesterday I got to go to A.C.Moore, yayy!:D I bought three different colors of yarn, with which I plan to knit a lovely long scarf, and I must say, I kind of suck at knitting.:P It took me forever to learn how, and much thanks to google and youtube. I also bought some feathers, and it seems as though my dog Romeo is afraid of feathers!(X I was having some fun with that, hehehh.. I also bought 4 different colors of string to make friendship bracelets with. But I'm keeping them for myself.:P I didn't do such a good job on the first one, though... Today was a lazy day for me; I was going to go to Goodwill for a couple things, but I couldn't 'cause my mum had to go somewhere else./: I'm impatient to start training and working; my mum said that I could open a checking account and get a debit card, cool.(: But, first she says I need to clean my room and organize it, because she's afraid I'd loose it.:P Bahh. My room IS quite the fright right now though, I must say... I guess I should get working on that. But first:


"That no matter how much evidence we have to prove that life is meaningless, we should believe that life makes some sort of sense- and that the story of Jesus is a good story, simply because it teaches us that we should be kind to others. THat we should do whatever it takes, that we should sing soul music if it makes the lives of others better. That we should try to be good people, and love everyone." This is an amazing quote from the book Sorta Like a Rock Star. Truth.(:


Au revoir, les amis.

If nothing else, believe in ▲RT.(:

Decided to trim my hair a bit, and I must say, it doesn't look too shabby.:D Didn't do much today, but that's going to change once I actually start working.:S Can't wait, eh? Looks as if my sisters and I are going to the mall today, even though all I want to do is go to A.C.Moore for some craft supplies!:P Gosh I can't wait for the money to start filling up my near-to-empty bank account..


Yesterday I was going through some of the clothes that I had stacked in a corner, and I cut up a sweater dress a bit to make it look better (in my opinion). I like cutting up my clothes and sewing and such.(: I was trying on some old clothes... then I got bored of that and started reading another book.. I can't remember the name. 
Haha last night was funnn; home alone.[:


I've been on this computer wayy to long today,


Au revoir, les amis.(:

Employed?

Well, looks like I've got a job, eh? Cool. Gatta get me some proper attire for the job: Black pants, shoes, and belt.  Anywhoodle.(:


I finished what might be my favorite book now, Sorta Like a Rock Star. One word: Awesome. But one word doesn't cover it. True? True. I cried last night reading it during the sad parts, I was so upset about it, and I got really teary-eyed at school today because of the happy parts. Happy tears.(': I'm in love with that book, I didn't know it was possible. I want to live that book. Possible? No. But it'd be pretty hardcore. Word.(: 


I dressed pretty awesome today, I must say, in my lacy-type light pink top, millitary jacket, buhda around my neck, summmore funky jewelry, grey skinny jeans, my "nazi" shoes, and my messy hair in teeny braids.(: Got some compliments, awesomely enough.:D I like being me.(;


Right now I'm looking through polyvore, wishing I could go to A.C.Moore 'cause I'd like some string and feathers to make some bracelets and dream catchers. But I can't, 'cause my mom's to tired.:P There's so many things I wish I had./: Is that bad? Ya know, like the glasses I need, a better mother, awesome hair, feathers, a camera, hats. Stuff like that; is that so bad? 


"Enjoy your youth. You'll never younger than you are at this very moment."


Au revoir, les amis.(:

△ H△ppy C△mper

I'm in such a great mood right now. True? True.:D
The book I'm reading, Sorta Like a Rock Star, I am just IN LOVE with it thus far.:D It's about a 17 year old girl in a very unique situation: she's homeless and sleeps in a bus that her mother drives, and she does love her mother, even though the woman's kind of a failure. Her mother pretty much wastes her money on cigs and liquor and goes from loser boyfriend to loser boyfriend. The girl, Amber, really understands things, I'm not sure how to explain it, but she really tells it how it is. In fifth grade she got put in a 'special' class somehow, where four other guys and her became best friends, but the boys have disabilities.  They seem like cute kids though: one used to stutter, one has autism, one in a wheelchair, and the other was the only black kid in their school and couldn't talk correctly, or something. Amber looks after herself, Bobby Big Boy, (her dog) her friends, and many other people. She's especially close with the autistic kid and his successful single mother, who's kinda like a second mother of Ambers. Amber joined a church with one of her friends, but realized she didn't like the sermons, and said the preacher made jesus sound like a pissy old woman who'll damn you to hell if you don't please him, but in Amber's mind Jesus in like a chill, nice dude, like a rock star who looks like the guy from the White Stripes.:D Word. She teaches english to Korean woman for community service so she can get into a good college. That's what I got within the first 58 pages. It's funny, I'd read a part I really liked and say aloud, "I freaking LOVE this book":D


Anywhoodle, a certain place that I had a job interview at called me today, asking if I still want the job.:D Hardcore; I said.... YES! Durhh.


The universe loves me today.(:


I went to the Guitar Center today with my mum, just looking for a replacement string and capo. What I ended up doing was checking out the acoustic guitars, tickling the stings a bit, trying my had at some ukulele, (which I couldn't quite figure out) checkin' out the pianos, and one of the cool balding guys that works there started chatting it up a bit with my mum and me. He was pretty cool, and played us a couple numbers on a nearby piano. Sweet deal.(: So a couple minutes before closing, my mum bought me a set of new strings, capo, a harmonica, and picks- yellow.:D Sweet. Freaking. Deal. I tired my lips on the harmonica on the ride home, not to shabby, I played "Oh When The Saints" on it.(X Hardcore? Nahh.(;


I've still got so much to learn when it comes to musical things, that's fo' sho'. I'm going to replace my guitar string right now!:D


Au revoir, les amis!(:

Every other monday is Library Day for me.(:

Personally, I like cycle days 4 and 6 at school. Those are the days my schedule goes as such: Algebra II, Wellness, Ceramics I, Chemistry, and Sculpture. They're just easygoing days for me.(: The days I do not like are gym days.:P If I could, I'd have Wellness class everyday.(: 
But for gym, I lost my gym shorts./: Somehow they disappeared, and I am quite upset about it./: I'm not sure which is more important- money, or my grade, because if I just wear regular athletic shorts, that's like 5 points off of a total of 20 per day!): It's totally not fair. At Lower Dauphin, all I needed was a change of athletic clothes that were some tint or shade of blue, black or white- the school colors, that is. Not a stupid uniform like at Donegal.:P It's not like it's really expensive, the shorts cost about seven dollars. And if my mum (since I still don't have a job) can't afford that, I do not want to have to trade my fleece gym pants (which I have not yet received from school) for shorts. Truth is, I never had sweatpants before, and I think they'd be really comfortable to me.  So that's my unfortunate little dilemma. 


I was texting my mom about that stuff, and I must say, I enjoyed the conversation I had with her, even though I was mostly complaining about how tired I am of unfair things, and life.:P I don't think I've talked to her that deeply before via texting.:P She just told me that things'll get better once I get a job. That's what she always when I'm upset about life. But I still don't have a job, and life is frustrating me NOW. I'm quite impatient. 


I finally finished the book Repossessed today, and my favorite part is where it says, 
"It's the glitches and the twists that make this universe unique and compelling. Without flaws, there would be no depth."(:


I had to walk from the high school to the library, to home. Well, I didn't really have to, I just think it's an adventure, I never know who or what I'll see on the way.(: I returned two books, renewed one, and checked out three others. Not sure which order I'll read them in, but I'm hoping they're good.(: I like good books.:D


Yesterday night I was meditating a bit, and I had the strangest thought: what if, in the mornings at school before the bell rings, what if I just sat down and started meditating?:D That'd be a nice way to start the morning, and put me in a good mood for the rest of the day.(: I'd start the day being 'one with the universe.' I just might do that when the weather gets warmer so I can do it outside, 'cause I always feel so much better outside.(: But of course some people would gawk and think I'm weird. Well, I am weird, and happy to be.(: And I'm going to do the things I enjoy that effect my life in positive ways, yep.(:


Looks like it's getting kind of late,


Au revoir, les amis.(:

Hangin' with my droogs.(:

Tonight I finally got to viddy the film A Clockwork Orange with Ryan and Morgs.:D It certainly wasn't how I imagined, but still pretty good. And rather silly- the people looked really droll, with crazy bright colored wigs and what not.(X 


After the movie Morgs left to hang out with other friends, leaving Ryan alone to try to keep me entertained, but I didn't really know what I wanted to do, so he was rather frustrated and kept saying he was a failure at being a host.(X He also said that I was hard to read, and he can usually see right through people- but that's certainly not verbatim.. I thought that was kinda cool, even though it kind of bothered him- it makes me feel mysterious. He said he could tell that there's a lot that I'm thinking about, but I express nothing.(X So after some chatting, me playing guitar, me getting the jitters from my inhaler meds and breaking a chair and knocking down a Kiss figurine, Ry drove me home. I had the job of picking conversation topics on the ride home, and it was mostly about religion. I like the way Ryan thinks, even though I don't always agree with it. He's an entertaining person to me without having to try.(:


Looks like mum's home with a hamburger for me.(:


P.S. I've been wearing my awesome new beanie since I made it, I really like it, a pretty deep red color.(: 


Au revoir, les amis.:D

Never let the worry of yesterday or the dread of tomorrow ruin today.

I simply had to share this part from the book I'm still reading and mentioned yesterday, Repossessed- it's funny, isn't it? Well, it sure made me laugh.(:

"I'll curse, I decided. Yes.  I will let Jason come, but first I will curse. That will get the frustration out of my system.

But none of the words I knew seemed like they would satisfy. Most American curse words seem to be related to perfectly natural bodily functions, and I've never seen why they strike people as being wicked. They didn't strike me as being particularly fulfilling anyway. The only word commonly used that indeed felt like a curse word was one that started with a d and ended with mn, and I had no desire to use that. No human would let it cross their lips if he knew what it meant in truly practical terms.

'Rats!' I tried. 'Confound it! Egad! Tarnation! Blast!'

'Blast!' seemed to work pretty well, so I stuck with that, 'Blast! Blast! Blast!'" 

-A. M. Jenkins

Alright, it's time to do some chores-

Au revoir, les amis.(:

▲▵▴▼△

Today didn't really feel like friday, because our school had two days off this week due to the weather. Hmm... The school day was pretty good, in Alg. 2 there was a substitute, who let us listen to iPods. In gym I practiced for the silver circuit and played a little volleyball. In art I finished a project and played with clay a little. In chemistry the whole class we were going over conversions for the metric system, during which I read from a book I got from the library. The teacher didn't really mind this, but asked if I gave up on trying to understand, because a lot of the students had gotten confused. I said no and explained what I understood was going on. Haha!(: In fifth period (photography) the teacher was doing something most of the time so I just read some more. It's a rather good book... Repossessed, I think it's called. It's much better than I thought it would be, about a demon, I believe, named Kaliel, or something. He leaves his duties to posses a teen who was just about to die, and views the world through human eyes, and is very observant and easily fascinated by the simplest things. I like that, and I like how it makes me feel the need to be more observant and curious about things.(:


When I got home I was rather tired, so I just lied on my cluttered bed for a while.. Then I straightened up my room. Then I ate a taco. Then I checked my email. Then my mum took me to the Mount Joy Diner. Then I waited for a friend and read some more.(: Then he arrived, and we were there for.. a few hours. And I saw a couple more friends there, how lovely.(: Then I walked home in the lovely cold air. It felt nice, I'm not sure why, walking alone in the frigid dark. I guess it was because I was thinking about other memories- past days of being outside.. And again the friends I miss./: Which reminds me-


I am to see my wife tomorrow, and finally watch A Clockwork Orange, I'm quite excited!:D I loved the book, so hopefully I enjoy the movie too.(: My dear friend Ali told me she is in the process of drivers ed, and should have her license and car by March, so she can drive from Maryland to come and see me.(; I think I'm going to hang out with Dylan after school on monday; I do miss the kid./: Seems like a bit more is going on than my usual boring life- my only reason is 'cause February is MY month.:D Don't know exactly why or how, but that's how it's ganna be.(:


hugs, kisses,
~Virgini▲.(:

Honesty is the best policy.

Ohh yeahhh. 
I'm still doin' the No Facebook/ No TV thing still, BUT my sister Victoria posted a ignorant picture of me on Facebook and tagged me in it, so I just HAD to get on to find it and comment "delete it, bitch." I was quite upset. 


So I'm sitting in front of the computer, sipping hot tea, listening to We Used To Vacation- "I promised to my wife and children, I'll never touch another drink as long as I live. But even then it sounds so soothing, to mix a gin and sink into oblivion." And I'm thinking. And I just got a text.:D But really, I'm thinking about memories, the ones I miss, in particular. Early childhood ones, when everything was a lot simpler than I thought at the time, and how much I'd give to go back and have the comprehension and understanding I have now, back then. To just know how precious those years were. But they aren't coming back, that's fer sure. And when I'm older, I'll probably be looking back at THESE years, wishing I had done things differently. Never fully satisfied? You bet. 


I know I have homework to do, gym shorts to find, umm... I know I'm forgetting something else.... Oh well.. Oh yeah! I want to try to decide what classes to take next year, AND I need to plan out how I'm going to do my graduation project!(: A thing I dislike is when I chose a class in hopes to learn something useful, and sometimes the class has bad teachers and bad students which make me unenthusiastic about the class./: But that's something I don't have control over. Which reminds me of what I'm learning in Wellness in class, there are things that influence your life that you may or may not be able to control.


Anywhoodle, some things I am also missing are friends- the ones I used to talk to all the time, but hardly do anymore./: I'm not sure what goes wrong for this to happen, but it hurts, not being there for each other and knowing what's going on in their lives...  One in particular that I've been thinking about is my very dear wife. I miss you, lots, and I miss the fun we always have.): 


P.S. I look pretty cute today.(: 
Self Esteem +1


Au revoir, les amis.(:

Is it as easy as it looks?

Soooo this no TV/ no Facebook thing isn't as easy as I thought it would be. Every time I get onto the computer my fingers automatically type in faceb- then I stop myself and have to remember why I got on the computer in the first place.:P And I don't like having to leave the room because someone turns on the TV. 


I just got a text (well, 2) that there's no school today! That's the second day in a row! And I am actually upset... I'm to awake to go back to sleep./: 
But I guess since I'm up I can 'seize the day'.:D 


Ohmygosh, like yesterday, I cleaned my room and I can actually walk around without stepping on something now! And I hung up some pictures.. which keep falling down... Oh well, my room is pretty awesome, I must admit.(; Maybe one day someday I'll put up some pictures of it.:D 


So, yesterday as I was going through things to get rid of while cleaning my room, and I came across some old binders. And I took them apart. And the cardboard is really durable. Which I think I might try to make some shoes out of.:D 'Cause, I'm just that awesome.(X That's what I'll do today! I think not watching TV or being on Facebook has made me more productive, and I'm glad.(: 
But I can't be productive while on the computer though, now can I?
Soo,


Au revoir, les amis.(:

Guess what tomorrow is?(:

That's right, tomorrow (as I write this) is the first of February- the day that I have decided to take a month long break from Facebook and Television!:D I don't know why I'm so excited... I really don't. 'Cause it's not as if anybody else cares. But, it'll be good for me. It's a huge waste of my time! And time is so valuable. I could spend it reading or meditating, which are two things that are much better than stalking people on Facebook.(X


READING/MEDITATING > STALKING PEOPLE ON FACEBOOK


Seeee?!:D


I could clean up my room, venture around town (if weather permits) and work on art projects!:D Which reminds me, I have to bother my mom to let me set up an Etsy account, so maybe then I can SELL some of my creations...(: 


Bahh, school. 'Nuff said.:P


Au revoir, les amis.(;

Chicken Strips and British Guys.(:

I cooked up some chicken strips for lunch today- yummy!:D And I've been watching YouTube videos of Charlieissocoollike and his friend, Alex Day.(: But oh, poop, the family JUST returned from work. I like being home alone, except for lovely little Romeo to keep me company.(: I might have mentioned it before, but I really dislike the negative energy my sisters and mum create and produce./: It really upsets me, and makes me long for a place- a home all to my own to maintain a happy feeling about.(: That'd  be nice.

Well, I guess I have to go and do my chores now./:

Au revoir, les amis.(:

Hi. It's been awhile.

I haven't written in my blog for a kind of a long time, huh? Well, here's some of what's new:
The semester- I miss the first semester already.): I miss the friends and easy-breezy, fun classes./: What am I going to do?? Well, at least I got a new binder.(:


I slept over at Star's house last night, and had soo much fun!:D I went home on the bus with her, and a certain place called me to set up an interview- which I went to today, and fingers crossed that I have some luckk to get a job!(: 


I want to make February MY month. Ya know, to start anew. Even though January was the start of the new year, it wasn't a very good start.:P And who says I can't just start something whenever? I say I can!(: 
Start new how? I'm glad you asked.(X Starting February I will go a month without wasting time watching ANY TV or GOING ON FACEBOOK!:O That's what I plan to do, and I hope to succeed.(: Reading books and meditating appeals more to me. And some of the books that I have been reading have really been changing my perspective of things, and I am thankful for them.(: Two specifically are Like We Care, and How NOT to be Popular.(: Yuppers.


Oh, and on another note, I haven't been vegan or vegetarian for a while, and I'm a little upset with myself about it, but what the hell?:P I can choose to do whatever I want!:D


Au revoir, les amis.(:

Face-to-Face

Today I woke up to find out that school was canceled. And I would have been perfectly content with just a delay. I actually wanted just a delay, 'cause I had no idea what I was going to do today. I thought about it for a while, then just decided to go back to bed.:P 

I had quite an eventful weekend. 'Nuff said.(:

Anywhoodlee, today's Facebook status reads: 

Could you survive without Facebook?? For how long?

Savannah Bundy said she's gone a WHOLE MONTH without Facebook to prove people wrong that she wasn't addicted. But, after a month of course that addiction creeped back. 

And this goes for all technology that we rely on- God forbid two people would have to have a conversation face-to-face rather relying on things like instant messaging and texting. 

Maybe that's why I'm so shy: I rely on technology to much as my voice./: If only there were a way I could break free of the addiction! 

Aside from all that madness, I came across a school, an amazing school in Missouri. A entire beautiful high school and campus dedicated to a variety of arts! Fuck Donegal, Interlochen is where I belong! But, that'll have to remain a dream./: *sigh* 

Au revoir, les amis.(:

Insert Second Interesting Title Here.(:

On Friday I was thinking about things again, and decided to write my mum another letter, hoping to get some insight from her. This time it was a little longer though:

"Hi Mum, it's me again.

This time as I'm writing this I'm in Biology class, and we're going over our Final Exam Study Guide. It's only 8:22, at least that's what my watch says. I;m the only one at my table, because everyone who sits near me went to other tables to work with other students. I usually work alone when we're doing partner work in any class, unless it's some big project. Except in one class, even though I had a partner for a Business Leadership project, I was doing all the work. I don't remember the girl's name, but she wouldn't help me at all. I didn't get to finish that project and I'll probably get a bad grade, which wouldn't be fair because I missed a class or two, and was pretty much on my own. Oh well.

I was thinking it'd be nice to visit the river, in Bainbridge, and the trails there. Well, maybe when winter is over. That'd be nice. I'm anxious for warm days, and warm nights. I loved walking around outside barefoot.(:

I miss Ali. It was fun the last time I slept over at her house, and Scot's really cool, although it seems like he'd get rather lonely, especially since Brownie died.): That's really sad.

I really wish I had a camera, like the ones we use in Photography class. They're wonderful. I love taking and editing pictures and video, a lot. Which reminds me, I still need to figure out how I'm going to complete my graduation project...

I don't want this semester to end, I'm scared because I still owe late work and missed tests, I'm not sure how I'm going to get it all done.

I really hope I didn't go over on my phone bill. I'm not sure how that could have happened. I was thinking maybe it was for keeping old voice-mail messages, so I deleted them all last night.(: What would I do without my phone? How would I even get a job then?? How would I get together with friends and talk to people when I need consoling? I surely can't use facebook for all that- it's not most efficient. What if I decide to go on a walk by myself, and something were to happen? What if I'm just home alone and something horrible happens?? I bet if I were to lose my cell phone to you, you would punish me if I randomly went on a  walk. If you took me of the computer, I'd try to go to the library, or maybe a nearby friend's house for computer usage. Then you'd take my iPod, and you might now music is VERY important to me. You know what I'd do then?(: I'd walk around town, strumming my guitar, instead of walking 'round town with earbuds blasting music into my skull.(:

WHICH REMINDS ME- I REALLY NEED A KAPO! ...I can't remember if that's spelled with a 'k' or a 'c'... I also really need glasses. Can you believe the TV is blurry to me when I'm sitting on the couch?! How could my eyesight have gotten so bad, so fast?/:

I also need a bike. And could you look into that Etsy thing? It's really exciting to me, to be able to sell things made by me.(: I'd feel very much appreciated.

Hmm. I really like to write, but I probably look weird, scribbling madly away.(: But I don't  mind, I'd love to have lost my mind, completely mad, I tell y.(: Looks like the class is almost over, so tootless.

-Virginia McL

(continued)

Hi, I'm bored again.

It's now 10:12, according to my watch. I was thinking, I wish I could have a laptop, or a mini laptop. That way I could curl up in a corner with it, or be in a coffee shop or something, and be all nerdy.(: By that I mean I could do research for pleasure, I'd really like that. I like to learn, especially on subjects that interest me. Oh, I could do a lot of typing, too. I'd carry it around with me, and whenever an idea popped into my head, such as for a song, or a story, I'd be able to type it down while it was fresh in my head!(: I'd like that lots.:D I'd be a true nerd.(: I'd start saving money, if I had something to save./: Gosh. This is really upsetting, seeing people who are more privileged to things than me, and sometimes not using what they have with best intentions. *Sigh* When and how will life look up??

Au Revoir,   (<<French, I want to learn more French)
-Viii McL"

My mom told me she read that once, but needs to read things twice to comprehend.:P I'll bug her until she reads it again so I can get some thoughts from her, assuming she would have some.


Au Revoir, les amis.(: